I’m a former addict, 17 years clean. That book made me remember people I hadn’t thought of in years, made me re-evaluate who I had been, who I was, who I had around me. Even years later, when I’ve felt so close to breaking, that book came to mind. Did I want to lose myself again? To be unrecognizable to my own self and everyone around me? To go back to trying to hide this demon eating away at me with whispers of feeling whole again? Could I pay that price again, could I take wondering what happened to another “friend”, of looking up and knowing they weren’t waking up?
Requim for a Dream, too. Found them both around the same time, haven’t been the same person since.
“A Scanner Darkly”, the novel.
I’m a former addict, 17 years clean. That book made me remember people I hadn’t thought of in years, made me re-evaluate who I had been, who I was, who I had around me. Even years later, when I’ve felt so close to breaking, that book came to mind. Did I want to lose myself again? To be unrecognizable to my own self and everyone around me? To go back to trying to hide this demon eating away at me with whispers of feeling whole again? Could I pay that price again, could I take wondering what happened to another “friend”, of looking up and knowing they weren’t waking up?
Requim for a Dream, too. Found them both around the same time, haven’t been the same person since.