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Cake day: November 7th, 2024

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  • I came across it years ago when it was first airing on TV, a friend of mine was super into Zak (imo he’s an overgrown child but to each their own). Got into it because they are so extra, it def works as a comedy. Then later in life had some roomies and we’d watch it while smoking. Hilarious, have quite a few phrases that live in my head rent free from that show







  • First, internet hugs 🫂

    I can tell you are beating yourself up, I have the same tendency and know how easy it can be to slip into a spiral. Try to remind yourself that you are only human and to give yourself some grace ♥️

    Now, please believe me when I say he is wrong to hold you accountable for the actions of others, especially since you both had talked about your intentions and he expressed that he was fine with it. The part he seemed most upset about was the pics, which is something you DID NOT solicit and is not a failing of yours.

    You really, truly didn’t do anything too bad. You wanted to engage in conversations for cash, spoke with him about it, he was fine with it, and people outside of your control spun things up. It seems to me that when things happened that crossed the boundary that you both had set for this scenario, that you did the right thing and disengaged with the other person. If he still insists on holding you responsible, then he is a fool and not worth your energy.

    I recognize that the feelings you have are strong, but I challenge you to try directing all that love that you have to give inward, to yourself. Treat yourself to a spa day today, get a nice lil treat, if you have a garden, either yours or a community garden, go and try to appreciate the spring blooms! The viburnum are blooming in my area and their perfume is so lovely. I can just sit there and listen to the bees hum along. Find some serenity for yourself and remind yourself that you are a worthy human being ❤️


  • HE hurt YOU. My heart breaks for you. He is immature and not worth your time, block him and move on with your life. It may be hard to see right now, but someone who makes you feel so terrible is not the person for you. I get the feeling that you want to be in a relationship more than you care about who that relationship is with. That is a dangerous, emotionally draining road that I want so badly for you not to go down.

    You have value, you are beautiful inside and out, and love starts with you celebrating that within yourself.


  • Girl, I am saying this with so much love and compassion for you- any person who is worried about body count is not worth your time. Him asking alone would be enough of a red flag for me that I would be telling him we’re done if I were in your shoes. And then when he hears 5, he is sobbing? Massive red flag, I don’t care how nice he may seem, he is not mature enough to be in a relationship and you deserve better.

    Sex is just a thing that two consenting adults can do, you having sex before you met him is nothing to be ashamed of, especially if you are practicing safe sex. It’s also pretty unhealthy for you to take on the burden of his shame over your sexual life. If you were able to get him to come back, I fear his jealousy and insecurity would be riddled throughout your relationship. I spent all of my 20’s in relationships with insecure men (I am a cishet woman) and I want to try to advise you against making a similar mistake. I could have been enjoying those ten years either on my own, or trying to find someone who really valued me. But instead I took on their problems and when I look back on my twenties I SO FUCKING WISH I had broken up with those men sooner (it was 2 long term relationships, one was 6 years, the other was ~3.5 years). I don’t know how old you are, but I get a young vibe and I just want you to know that you will find someone who sees your beauty and isn’t worried about such trivial things. “Forced love the worst love, throw that shit in the can.” -a line from YBN Cordae’s song Family Matters https://youtu.be/j8Xg0Y60Tr4

    As for messaging people for money and some of the concerns about breaking his trust (as well as being accosted by online horndogs), the best you can do is learn from that outcome. I am not going to shit on people who sell companionship, whether that’s just chatting, pics, or otherwise, but as you have found, men online who engage in this trade are dick pic machines. My personal takeaway is that whatever money you made was not worth the stress and the damage it wrought in your personal life. I won’t, and can’t, tell you not to do it, but to me it doesn’t seem worth it.

    Take care of yourself first and foremost, and know your value 💖



  • Mood. There was a time I was standing in line at the post office and some haggard looking mother was doing her best to calmly reign in her child who was busy running away from her, screeching and pulling over every display he could reach, and having zero regard for anyone else in the vicinity. I could see her exhaustion and I wouldn’t wish that on anyone. I usually just grit my teeth and try to ignore it until I can escape, but this time I cut off the kids path when he got close, said “Stop” in the harshest tone I could muster, and ngl was pretty pleased with myself when he went crying to his mom. I did realize in that moment, tho, that I probably shouldn’t have kids.


  • I didn’t interpret their use of the word individualistic as an assertion that those who choose to be child-free are selfish. Selfish has a negative connotation to it that I don’t feel they were going for. I think they were just contrasting that while being a parent requires putting yourself aside and focusing on a different human, being child-free allows a person to focus on their individual goals, whims, what have you.

    I also agree with you that there is nothing wrong with a person choosing not to have kids, and there’s a lot of reasons to pick from. For me, those are:

    •I have never yearned for motherhood

    •I find pregnancy impressive from a biological perspective but at the same time horrific and something I never want to go through

    •I am prone to depression which makes it hard for me to care for myself on a consistent basis so I am not going to bring another life into this world only to be too swamped in self-loathing to take care of them

    •I detest humanity, we have spent our entire existence as a species ravaging the earth as well as each other and I see no end to it. I hate that realistically I will have to watch people be cruel to each other for the rest of my life and have decided not to create another human who has to trudge through this hellscape which undoubtedly will only be worse off in their future