Well if you take the advice of randoms that far, you are just plain stupid and should not be in charge of your own actions

Then im sure you don’t deserve it. No reason to not be happy just because you don’t deserve to

But I would suggest start looking in weird places

My last good day is always and forever today. My (or your) circumstances should never impair my (or your) ability to be happy 😁 it sounds weird, but you are allowed (it is your right) to feel happy even as your life is crumbling around you. And if you can’t find that feeling, that’s alright too.